00:00:00.433 --> 00:00:02.666 ROWAN: "Wake up, Jim Jam!" 00:00:03.066 --> 00:00:05.933 Rowan kicks me in the shin. 00:00:06.000 --> 00:00:11.033 Rowan and Lister and I are all in the same car, which makes a pleasant change. 00:00:11.600 --> 00:00:14.500 Usually we have to arrive at these award shows separately 00:00:15.000 --> 00:00:20.400 and I have to endure a car ride with a bodyguard who keeps glancing at me like I'm a rare Pokemon card. 00:00:20.933 --> 00:00:22.966 JIMMY: "I'm awake". I say. 00:00:23.566 --> 00:00:27.533 ROWAN: "No, you're not", he says, and then waggles his fingers above his head. 00:00:27.633 --> 00:00:29.333 ROWAN: "You're up there". 00:00:30.333 --> 00:00:33.866 Rowan Omondi is sitting opposite me in the back of our Hummer. 00:00:33.866 --> 00:00:36.800 He looks hot. Always does. 00:00:37.033 --> 00:00:39.800 His hair has been in twists for the last couple of months, 00:00:39.966 --> 00:00:43.033 and his glasses, new, are aviators. 00:00:43.333 --> 00:00:48.966 His suit is red with white and gold flowers on it, fire against his dark brown skin. 00:00:49.200 --> 00:00:50.833 His shoes are Christian Louboutin. 00:00:51.600 --> 00:00:54.700 He links his fingers together over one knee. 00:00:55.233 --> 00:00:57.233 His rings make a jangling sound. 00:00:57.500 --> 00:01:02.200 ROWAN: "It's nothing new. We've done this before. What's whirring?" 00:01:02.733 --> 00:01:04.500 He taps his temple and looks at me. 00:01:04.500 --> 00:01:06.266 JIMMY: [chortles] "What's whirring?" 00:01:06.633 --> 00:01:09.833 I love Rowan. He says words like he made them up. 00:01:10.233 --> 00:01:12.400 Probably why he's our lyricist. 00:01:12.900 --> 00:01:17.000 JIMMY: "Anxiety". I say. "I'm anxious". 00:01:17.166 --> 00:01:18.133 ROWAN: "About what?" 00:01:18.433 --> 00:01:20.133 I laugh and shake my head. 00:01:20.400 --> 00:01:24.366 JIMMY: [chuckles] "Not how it works. We've been through this." 00:01:25.166 --> 00:01:28.733 ROWAN: "Yeah, but like, everything has a cause and effect". 00:01:29.100 --> 00:01:33.266 JIMMY: "Anxiety is the cause AND the effect. Double whammy". 00:01:33.566 --> 00:01:34.900 ROWAN: "Oh". 00:01:35.700 --> 00:01:37.866 The anxiety thing isn't new. 00:01:38.533 --> 00:01:41.433 By this point, it's pretty much the fourth member of the band. 00:01:41.900 --> 00:01:44.633 I've been trying to get on top of it in therapy, 00:01:44.633 --> 00:01:46.966 but I haven't had the time for many sessions this year, 00:01:46.966 --> 00:01:49.633 what with the European tour and the new album. 00:01:50.033 --> 00:01:53.233 And I still haven't really warmed up to my new therapist. 00:01:53.566 --> 00:01:58.433 I haven't even told her about the massive panic attack I had at Children In Need last year yet. 00:01:58.600 --> 00:02:01.566 Still sang anyway. It's on YouTube. 00:02:01.733 --> 00:02:05.200 If you look closely, you can see the tear tracks on my face. 00:02:05.900 --> 00:02:07.766 We fall into silence. 00:02:08.333 --> 00:02:10.433 I can hear the screams in the distance. 00:02:10.766 --> 00:02:12.733 Sounds a bit like a tide. 00:02:13.033 --> 00:02:14.733 We must be nearly there. 00:02:15.333 --> 00:02:21.433 My weird bad feelings are probably half anxiety and half genuine nerves about tonight. 00:02:21.800 --> 00:02:24.766 Plus all the other things I'm sort of constantly dreading. 00:02:25.200 --> 00:02:30.266 I tend to constantly dread things, even when the things aren't actually dreadful. 00:02:30.266 --> 00:02:44.266 Currently up there on Jimmy's list of things he's dreading the most are signing our new contract and coming home from tour, along with tonight's performance at the West Coast Music Awards, a.k.a. our first ever live performance in America. 00:02:44.866 --> 00:02:47.966 It'll be no different to our normal concert performances, except that our audience will be the greatest musicians in the world and people who haven't really heard of us, rather than teenagers who know all our lyrics by heart. 00:02:48.200 --> 00:02:59.033 Everything's sort of changing and happening. And I feel excited. And scared. And my brain doesn't know how to deal with it all.